April 21, 2009

Chicken or the Egg

Spark or the horniness?

Had a poor convergence of circumstances happen to me starting this week. Rock left to go on a business trip and Rebound much too why I nicknamed him Rebound found a girl he is infatuated with and therefore will no longer use my body for his sexual needs until next time he is completely single. Shock said he would try to come over sometime this week but I could tell from the words he sounded like I should not hold my breath. On top of that I have various regular stuff that has a lot of my time this week that even if I got the desire to go out looking for a good time is somewhat limited and I try to be careful in doing that.

I am not a Craiglist type slut. I feel I am often torn between the two realms, the group that takes their time and lays a foundation before partaking in sexual pleasures with others and the adrenaline need now quick and basically anonymous. I refuse to do the place an ad and meet, fuck and go our separate way thing. Too close to my history and battle with sexual compulsion and safety issues. I think people get behind their computer and lie too often that without meeting them off guard or take the time to see them when they let their guard down you are really throwing the dice.

Now I am not judging those who do this even remotely. I have a long list that will continue to get longer of all the quick spontaneous blows and fucks I have done and many more picking up a person and into a bed with them shortly there after maybe an hour or so of talk. I know that in the end that this is just splitting hairs.

But I like and feel more comfortable with out there meeting first then turning it into something sexual over the gearing sexual and just that only or ending up sexually after meeting them but where both have invested in making it sexual. There is some pressure in that to me at least.

I like the spark determining things. Whether a innocent casual conversation turns into afternoon tryst or two people are so physically attracted to one another that the words seem to be only slowing what we both know what is going to happen down. Granted that only happens on a rare occasion but a girl can fantasize.

So I am stuck with my hands and some toys for most of this week for my sexual fun. I started to write this entry based on the poor substitute masturbation is to the real thing but got a little side tracked. Well for another time…


  1. I am *so* with you on this! I love that wording: the spark determining things - so very true. Finding that connection and seeing where it goes is so much more alluring and enticing.

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    Adultery and God's Punishment

    What are the consequences of doing adultery? Indeed, god's punishment in the life in this world and more harmful punishment in hereafter .let us to read ….

    There was a city in old Italy where its people were doing adultery and homosexuality and they were so proud with that. Also they used to draw pornographic pictures on walls in front of all people; researchers believe that art of pornography started in this dissolute city. {1}

    What was the consequence of doing that? And what was the end of those people? What is the start of their story?

    City of Pompeii is an old roman city that lived in a lot of luxury. God gave people of this city a lot of graces such as the best crops, a lot of rains and many natural resources.

    One day , people of Pompeii was celebrating god of fire day , but suddenly and without any kind of warning a volcanic eruption occurred which released a lot of lava. As a result, people tried to escape but all of them were killed immediately and the city was disappeared .also their bodies were covered with lava and these covered bodies had transferred after many years to be fossilized rocks. {2}

    A representative picture to the volcano which destroyed city of Pompeii and killed all People. Population of that city was up to 20000 person. So we have to remember god's saying: (So we seized them all of a sudden while they were unaware) (Sûrat Al-A‘râf – verse 95)

    This city was hidden till it was discovered in the 18 century .they found that people's bodies were fossilized and petrified on their last condition , which means that death came suddenly and they were not able to do anything.

    It's god's justice, in Qur'an god told us about his punishment on some people because of their sins, god says :( Do then those who devise evil plots feel secure that Allah will not sink them into the earth, or that the torment will not seize them from directions they perceive not? ,or that He may catch them in the midst of their going (in their jobs), so that there is no escape for them (from Allah's punishment)?) (Sûrat An-Nahl- verse 45-46). Indeed this verse tells us about this city and any other city might do like them. Archaeologists had found that punishment was descended on those people while they were on their daily life with no previous warning.

    So god alerts us not to do like those people or to feel safe from similar end, god says :( Did the people of the towns then feel secure against the coming of Our punishment by night while they were asleep?* Or, did the people of the towns then feel secure against the coming of Our punishment in the forenoon while they were playing? * Did they then feel secure against the Plan of Allah? None feels secure from the Plan of Allah except the people who are the losers.)(Sûrat Al-A‘râf - verse 97-99)

    Researchers had found many drawing for pornographic pictures in this city as evidence that adultery and homosexuality were in every place in the city. Also, researchers believe that people of Pompeii were doing the adultery in front of kids and all people and they were not shy of that. Also they believe that adultery was in a large scale more than today's.

    People of Pompeii believed in god of sex, so they used to glorify him and to draw paints to get his satisfaction. We have to mention that there is an exhibition which includes these paints and pictures but children are not allowed to watch it without a special approval. {3}

  3. Walls in some rooms in Pompeii with drawing of adultery, these drawing remained as an evidence that there is wisdom behind what happened to those people, and how much they deserve to die by this terrifying way.

    What happened to the people of this city is totally identical with the following verse, God be he blessed and exalted says :( So, when they forgot (the warning) with which they had been reminded, We opened for them the gates of every (pleasant) thing, until in the midst of their enjoyment in that which they were given, all of a sudden, We took them (in punishment), so! They were plunged into destruction with deep regrets and sorrows.* so the root of the people who did wrong was cut off. And all the praises and thanks are to Allah, the Lord of the ‘Âlamîn (mankind, jinn, and all that exists) (Sûrat Al-An’âm- verse 44-45).

    Indeed god had opened for them gates of every pleasant thing, as mentioned before such as natural resource, rains , best crops , etc….but they forgot their god and followed their instincts , so they died by this terrifying way .

    A real photo for human bodies of people of Pompeii .Their bodies was transferred to be fossilized rocks. This punishment is in this life but in the hereafter punishment is strong and last forever, god says :( And thus do We requite him who transgresses beyond bounds [i.e. commits the great sins and disobeys his Lord (Allah) and believes not in His Messengers, and His revealed Books, like this Qur’an], and believes not in the Ayât (proofs, evidence, verses, lessons, signs, revelations, etc.) of his Lord; and the torment of the Hereafter is far more severe and more lasting.) (Sûrat Tâ-Hâ- verse 127).

    Finally we have to supplicate to our god by saying :( Our Lord! Make us not a trial for the folk who are polytheists (wrong-doers) (i.e. do not make them overpower us) * "And save us by Your Mercy from the disbelieving folk.")(Sûrat Yûnus - verse 85-86){4}


    By: Abduldaem Al-Kaheel



    1. www.spiegel.de

    2. Pompeii, www.wikipedia.org

    3. www.francesfarmersrevenge.com

    4. Our brother Mohammad Lujain Alzin participated in the idea of this research may god will reward him for that work, and also reward any one who may contributes by a useful idea.


    1. Salvatore Ciro Nappo, Pompeii : Its Discovery and Preservation, www.bbc.co.uk

    2. Pompeii, www.wikipedia.org

    3. www2.pompeiisites.org