March 13, 2009

This Blog and me

Thank you for clicking on this blog. What I expect to be writing in this log is a wide mixture of consciously and severely living and being treated like a sexual object first and a person second between my husband and I. When I mean mixture I mean both from general topics to some specific day to day type stories. From boring mundane to spicy and from keeping it light and not too serious to delving into things, especially in my past, that comes from a very dark place that has deeply impacted how I got to be a sexually objectified wife.

A basic outline of what to expect and what I am going for is a mixture of recaps of some things that happen, specific sex talk and especially how we go to make me be objectified in a very serious and committed way as well as broader subjects. What you will not see in this blog are day to day posts of all the routine things and troubles we all experience. Therefore there is no intention to post something here everyday.

Who am I?

To be introduced to you in public I would be called Crystal. My legal first name is Gloria. My favorite name is the one I am called by my husband in private and that is cunt. For us the name is not meant to be the derogatory definition but meant to convey extreme sexual object. We both thought slut and other terms we tossed around to be too endearing or positive that they lost the goal of re-enforcing my sexual objectification. We love my name cunt we know it is a popular name with life dynamics that are similar to ours but we could care less about being unique. There is just very little way to say cunt and make it come off all cute and cuddly.

I am thirty year old white female. Physically I am 5’ 3” slim because I obsess over it with a tiny bubble butt that most men express wanting to fuck and is probably my best physical feature. I have fake 34C breasts that look bigger because of my small frame. I have black hair and really expressive eyes. In all arrogance my face is just average at best and does not turn heads but my body does. 

I am a mixture of being a total stereotype in some things and bucking very long odds in others. I was abused and neglected as a child by both my parents and taken from them and dumped into the foster care system at the age of six bouncing from single and group homes until aging out. Manage to hit all the abuses in the system especially sexual. At age eighteen and homeless became a stripper or shall I write dancer for six years until marrying my husband of now six years.

For this fairytale like ideal childhood I managed to excel in school to the point of between my child loser status scholarship money and academic scholarships a lot of my college costs were paid for. I obtained a Master’s degree in social work. I do not drink, smoke or do drugs. I did try to escape with drugs as a teenager but they did not work for me. But I also suffer from zero self esteem from the gut and boundaries are intellectual guess points. My life is controlled by many compulsive behaviors or should I say in controlling them and being often obsessed with things needed to be done actually done. One of the biggest and hence this blog is my sexual compulsions.

My life today consists on being the best wife I can be to my husband, volunteer my time for foster teens and being a big sister to a couple of girls. Then outside of regular stuff that we all do the rest of my time is devoted to being a sex object for my husband.

The other part of the equation, my Husband

My wonderful and special husband is a thirty-eight year old black man. With the perfect body of being 6’ 4” and probably easily in the mid two hundred pounds perfectly proportioned model of thick all over with no overly soft spots and only his massive arms are rock hard with muscle definition. He has large powerful hands and a cock to be truly worshiped for its length, girth, stamina and recovery prowess. I call him Rock which is short for him being my “Rock Star and rocking my world”.

Personality wise he exudes self confidence and can charm the panties off any woman and can make any man think he is their best friend in just minutes. His heart is larger then anyone’s that I have ever seen and he spoils me way too much. I maybe be laying it on too thick but after six years of marriage I just love him more and more each day. No way in hell did I think I ever deserved or get this good of a man.

Why he is my beloved opposite for being treated as a sexual object is he is my actual opposite. He has a thing and drive that never tires on thinking and being all things sexual. He has as I have found out an insatiable appetite for his wife to be reduced to a total sex toy driven by being objectified and degraded.

He considers himself a dominant cuckold in which he does not get demeaned by having me fuck other people but just loves it and takes active control in using me by having men fuck me in all types of scenarios. The best way to describe it is how he explained it to me when wooing me. Most men dream after a rough day of work to come home to a wife dressed like a lingerie model with a cold drink in her hand for him, smelling his favorite meal cooking in the oven and relaxing before dinner by watching ESPN while getting a shoulder massage and blow job from his wife. Rock’s perfect coming home after a hard day of work would be by seeing multiple cars in our drive way and when opening the door hearing me get the shit fucked out of me by one man while a couple of men wait for their turn watching me and that guy and ESPN on the couch. Which he would then get them drinks and watch with them and after all of them are done grab me and then take me sexually himself very roughly and verbally assaulting me.

Sexually Objectification what do I mean?

Brief summary as I plan on writing something in more detail but what a typical women might categorize herself as a mom first then wife, daughter and something like that. I am considered first a sex object then the other things and it is not just some cute playful thing. As I will or have already written somewhere else to say we take this seriously might be an understatement. For us this vow and living this way is as important as monogamy vow for most people. To not do this would be an act of betrayal and a declaration of no longer in love with the other.

Rock sums it up in fewer words “My body is be thought of only in sexual terms and all things sexual take priority over anything else except health”. That literally I break our vow if I choose to fix dinner for him or something like that by denying someone something sexual from me. Whether a regular comes over and I was to say no or just cut a session short. Literally sex is always the number one priority.

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    Adultery and God's Punishment




    What are the consequences of doing adultery? Indeed, god's punishment in the life in this world and more harmful punishment in hereafter .let us to read ….

    There was a city in old Italy where its people were doing adultery and homosexuality and they were so proud with that. Also they used to draw pornographic pictures on walls in front of all people; researchers believe that art of pornography started in this dissolute city. {1}

    What was the consequence of doing that? And what was the end of those people? What is the start of their story?

    City of Pompeii is an old roman city that lived in a lot of luxury. God gave people of this city a lot of graces such as the best crops, a lot of rains and many natural resources.

    One day , people of Pompeii was celebrating god of fire day , but suddenly and without any kind of warning a volcanic eruption occurred which released a lot of lava. As a result, people tried to escape but all of them were killed immediately and the city was disappeared .also their bodies were covered with lava and these covered bodies had transferred after many years to be fossilized rocks. {2}



    A representative picture to the volcano which destroyed city of Pompeii and killed all People. Population of that city was up to 20000 person. So we have to remember god's saying: (So we seized them all of a sudden while they were unaware) (Sûrat Al-A‘râf – verse 95)

    This city was hidden till it was discovered in the 18 century .they found that people's bodies were fossilized and petrified on their last condition , which means that death came suddenly and they were not able to do anything.

    It's god's justice, in Qur'an god told us about his punishment on some people because of their sins, god says :( Do then those who devise evil plots feel secure that Allah will not sink them into the earth, or that the torment will not seize them from directions they perceive not? ,or that He may catch them in the midst of their going (in their jobs), so that there is no escape for them (from Allah's punishment)?) (Sûrat An-Nahl- verse 45-46). Indeed this verse tells us about this city and any other city might do like them. Archaeologists had found that punishment was descended on those people while they were on their daily life with no previous warning.

    So god alerts us not to do like those people or to feel safe from similar end, god says :( Did the people of the towns then feel secure against the coming of Our punishment by night while they were asleep?* Or, did the people of the towns then feel secure against the coming of Our punishment in the forenoon while they were playing? * Did they then feel secure against the Plan of Allah? None feels secure from the Plan of Allah except the people who are the losers.)(Sûrat Al-A‘râf - verse 97-99)

    Researchers had found many drawing for pornographic pictures in this city as evidence that adultery and homosexuality were in every place in the city. Also, researchers believe that people of Pompeii were doing the adultery in front of kids and all people and they were not shy of that. Also they believe that adultery was in a large scale more than today's.

    People of Pompeii believed in god of sex, so they used to glorify him and to draw paints to get his satisfaction. We have to mention that there is an exhibition which includes these paints and pictures but children are not allowed to watch it without a special approval. {3}

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  2. Walls in some rooms in Pompeii with drawing of adultery, these drawing remained as an evidence that there is wisdom behind what happened to those people, and how much they deserve to die by this terrifying way.

    What happened to the people of this city is totally identical with the following verse, God be he blessed and exalted says :( So, when they forgot (the warning) with which they had been reminded, We opened for them the gates of every (pleasant) thing, until in the midst of their enjoyment in that which they were given, all of a sudden, We took them (in punishment), so! They were plunged into destruction with deep regrets and sorrows.* so the root of the people who did wrong was cut off. And all the praises and thanks are to Allah, the Lord of the ‘Âlamîn (mankind, jinn, and all that exists) (Sûrat Al-An’âm- verse 44-45).

    Indeed god had opened for them gates of every pleasant thing, as mentioned before such as natural resource, rains , best crops , etc….but they forgot their god and followed their instincts , so they died by this terrifying way .



    A real photo for human bodies of people of Pompeii .Their bodies was transferred to be fossilized rocks. This punishment is in this life but in the hereafter punishment is strong and last forever, god says :( And thus do We requite him who transgresses beyond bounds [i.e. commits the great sins and disobeys his Lord (Allah) and believes not in His Messengers, and His revealed Books, like this Qur’an], and believes not in the Ayât (proofs, evidence, verses, lessons, signs, revelations, etc.) of his Lord; and the torment of the Hereafter is far more severe and more lasting.) (Sûrat Tâ-Hâ- verse 127).

    Finally we have to supplicate to our god by saying :( Our Lord! Make us not a trial for the folk who are polytheists (wrong-doers) (i.e. do not make them overpower us) * "And save us by Your Mercy from the disbelieving folk.")(Sûrat Yûnus - verse 85-86){4}

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    Footnotes:

    1. www.spiegel.de

    2. Pompeii, www.wikipedia.org

    3. www.francesfarmersrevenge.com

    4. Our brother Mohammad Lujain Alzin participated in the idea of this research may god will reward him for that work, and also reward any one who may contributes by a useful idea.

    References

    1. Salvatore Ciro Nappo, Pompeii : Its Discovery and Preservation, www.bbc.co.uk

    2. Pompeii, www.wikipedia.org

    3. www2.pompeiisites.org

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  3. Post again... It has been a very long time

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